One of the most successful male models on OnlyFans has lifted the lid on his secret life of loneliness in a heartbreaking new interview.
CJ Clark, 21, is already a multimillionaire with a huge house in San Diego and several luxury sports cars, but he tells GQ magazine that his daily reality is far different than the happy-go-lucky hunk his fans see on social media.
‘Living alone in a big house is super lonely,’ he told the publication. ‘The bigger the house, the lonelier you get.’
CJ spends most of his day going to the gym, watching movies alone, or chatting to his OnlyFans subscribers.
‘It went from feeling like I never had any attention in my life to like, holy s**t — 10,000 people were seeing me be myself,’ he said.
He’s only ever had one serious girlfriend, which was a long-distance relationship, and has trouble talking to strangers face-to-face.
Instead of meeting people in the real world, he prefers to subscribe to other OnlyFans creators and message them through the app – even though he knows he’s probably not really talking to the creator themselves.
‘I know in the back of my head that I’m talking to some middle-aged man,’ he admits, referring to the agencies that are hired to run popular OnlyFans accounts.
CJ said that he had trouble in school and was diagnosed as both dyslexic ‘super ADHD’ in third grade.
He also described himself as a ‘gargantuan porn addict’ by age 12 and said he was bullied at school with very few friends.
More recently, a doctor told him that he may have Asperger’s.
CJ says he first found validation through social media when he gained a huge following on TikTok.
When he was just 17, many of his followers asked him if he’d join OnlyFans once he became legal.
A few months after his 18th birthday, CJ joined the racy subscription site and earned $5,000 in his first 24 hours.
Now he’s a multimillionaire with a McLaren and a Porsche, but his large San Diego home remains largely unfurnished, with CJ spending most of his time creating content with a life-size sex doll or watching TV on his couch.
He suffered a psychotic break last year triggered by Richard Linklater’s existential animated film Waking Life, and is now in therapy.
Recent studies suggests that Generation Z – born between the years 1997 and 2012 – are less sexually active than previous generations.
Many reasons for the trend have been cited, from mental health issues and stress to Covid lockdowns and addictions to smartphones.
Many Zoomers are also turning to technology to get their rocks off with each other by sexting or having virtual sex, rather than in-person physical sex.
Additionally, almost two thirds of young people are now addicted to online pornography, according to a leading mental health and addiction clinic.
Paracelsus Recovery said research on patients referred for treatment suggested that porn addiction is significantly more prevalent than official numbers suggest.
Children are being exposed to online pornography from as young as nine, according to a recent study for the children’s commissioner for England.
A quarter of 16 to 21-year-olds first saw pornography on the internet while still at primary school. By the age of 13, 50 per cent had been exposed to it.
But Paracelsus Recovery, which is based in Zurich and London, warned it had seen a 150 per cent increase in the number of people being treated for porn addiction between 2019 and 2023.
One 27-year-old British man treated by Paracelsus Recovery said he became addicted to pornography after he started watching it from the age of 12.
He said: ‘I had lost all control over my behaviour. I was sitting in my room smoking weed and watching porn videos from morning to night.
‘I had no friends, it had messed up my education, and I felt hopeless.
‘I cannot even articulate how disgusting and ashamed I felt, and it’s only other individuals who have struggled with a porn addiction who can understand the depths of this despair.’
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